…and then came along my latest ‘love interest’ …except it’s not as clean cut as I first thought
And so I find myself frustrated and very keen, very soon. So why the burning enthusiasm? Is it cos it feels like it could be something special or is it because its something I shouldn’t have? not yet anyway.
People would think I was daft if I told them how often I think about him already, they’d warn me to be careful, but what if it’s just the timing hasn’t been altogether perfect and could be very good, but in time….would I be wrong to end it before I found out? Am I just being impatient? Its not easy to walk away I know…..I really do
Things important in common, that I am aware of so far are that we both like to have good times and party and we both seem down to earth and to have a good sense of humour.
So I see them clearly, and what I blur out is that I barely know him at all… am I just so desperate for love? I know I have so much to give now that I just want to do that… give my all and be in love
I thought time was an issue for me, like I didn’t have enough of it, and now because I can’t see or talk to him exactly when I want to it feels like I have all the time in the world to do so.
Its tough for me, I don’t know how the life is that he is currently leading…
Its tough for him too, he knows the life im leading and its party good times….
Very frustrating .. And I realise how impatient I am cos I find it a struggle….. Its silly we have so much yet to learn we may not even like each other, we haven’t been out with each others closest.. What if it proves to be awful? we may not even like each other at all when we actually get to know each other properly….
I have said I would take a step back and yet since then, ive wanted to make contact so much more…
He has laid off the contact and it frustrates me so……
When I hear from him, everything’s ok again and once again, for some unknown reason, I feel wanted, even secure… but I want to stop thinking about him so much, as it would be much easier
And I know it must be very hard for him too… and so I wait, to see what happens …. Ever hopeful!!
For I am worthy of a loving spiritual relationship. Time will tell if we are truly spiritually connected, so I need to stop my head running away with the excitement of the possibility…..
